The oppressive heat and humidity of July has given way to the stagnant heat of August. The routine has become fixed with the one exception – bus rides. It seems that the youngest has been getting rides to his appointments and here and there and the rehab wants him to progress forward to riding the bus to his appointments. No big deal and yet it is. Because of his schizoaffective disorder, his high anxiety with any new thing, and his admitted fear of people, this simple get on this bus task seems to elude him. So he has been calling us and we have been taking him to his appointments.
This is not a good thing!!! So last week I suggested that he practice getting on the bus and riding it with his peer counselor. When I was in college my roommate and I just rode the bus all day, different busses, just to see where it would take us and how long it would take us to get to various places. But this is hard for the youngest. Hard because he would have to wait at the bus stop with people around, get on the bus with more people, be aware of when he needed to get off, and of course not listen to the voices in his head saying various things and being annoying. His counselor has been on vacation but I will be letting her know of the progress and the barriers so she can come up with some plans that may help.
So as August eases by with all the heat and angst my Prayer for today and for this month is for the youngest to step bravely onto a bus, any bus and successfully ride to a destination, any destination and for him to become confident of this skill. That the Sovereign Lord will hold him firmly in His mighty hands and that hubby and I will not succumb to being taxi drivers in order that the youngest will make this next step. Knowing that it is hard for the youngest, knowing that as parents we want to protect and guide , but not enable him so that he continues to grow and move forward, knowing that the youngest is a remarkable person ; all the knowing does not make this task easier but sometimes clouds the vision and pulls hard on the emotions I also pray for our peace and guidance in this next task. Thanks be to the Lord who remains in all things, over all things and through all things. AMEN