It happened again

Once again the youngest and I traveled together to go to book club. The discussion this week was “what is saving your life today” and when I told the youngest the topic he paused and commented “y’all talk about deep stuff” So off we went and he sat in the circle of these ladies, whom he calls his fan club!! He sat and participated and he was ok. No pulse checking, no sitting away from the group, just being.

I am thankful for this group of women, not that I think the same thoughts and I think that is a good thing. I am thankful for the acceptance of me and of the youngest,  thankful for the prayers said, the encouragements given, the smiles and delights of sharing one another’s burdens as well as joys. It is a community of believers, those who believe in a thing greater than we are and I am better for being a part of this little group.

so today my prayer is for community, for sharing burdens, joy, hope, laughter and tears. For a while with this group the broken world looks a little less broken, and a little more hopeful. Thanks be to God for this diverse group of women, who are looking deeper, more soulfully into the depths of God, and embrace the mystery . Amen


Celebrating successes- small steps with great impact

We are celebrating successes today. They may seem small but they are successes none the less. In family today we reviewed the week and one thing that came out was about the many successes that The youngest has had recently and even though he couldn’t make it to church Sunday,the week has gone pretty well.

Successes and how we measure them can lift a person up or drag them down. I so want  to encourage all to uplift people any time they can. So the youngest is in charge of vacuuming but the machine has been on the fritz so we got it back from the shop on Wednesday. He met me at the car and said ” I’ll take it in, can we just leave it down stairs and I will vacuum!!” So that is what we did . And he admitted today that he had missed this little thing, this little chore which helps him feel positive and contributing to the household!! Indeed little things make a big difference.

Secondly, and more wow for me was as we were talking about chores and getting paid, I related that he had asked what I wanted for my birthday because “I might just buy you something” and then I said ” well, maybe you could take me out to dinner” and he totally surprised me and said ” Yeah, I think I can do that”. So while it has not taken place hope springs up and I am thankful for this little success because it has not been that long ago that he would have said “No way” . So we chatted about where to go and what that would be like and you can almost see the beginnings of wings forming for him to fly, to be independent, to achieve as much as he can!! I am at once both tearful with joy, and terrified that something will happen that will be a setback, but forward motion is forward motion and I praise the Lord!

so my prayer for today is that the God of all things who is on all things, over all things, and through all things will continually sustain us with endurance, hope and wisdom for these transition times. Amen

Shifting sands

Sunday today, much like any other Sunday except the sands have shifted once again. So last night the youngest sent me a text, “I am mad” “don’t come up here” . So honored that request  and texted back  ” about??” Thinking he would maybe give me a clue as to what he was angry about , but the response was short and terse ” stuff” “good night”. So what to do – say a prayer, go to sleep, hope things are better in the morning and so I did just that or at least attempted to.

So today is Sunday and we were up and off to church and again I asked about the mad and what it was about. He still did not want to talk. Got to church, parked the car and then he asked to be taken back home “I just don’t feel like church today” so I took him home went back to church and enjoyed the service, the songs, the scripture, the sermon but all the while was a bit distracted about the shifting sands and what the problem was and since I did not know what it was I could not help so turned that care over to the higher power and just had sabbath – the sitting with the presence of God.

Back home and all was quiet, hubby made a Walmart run so I asked the youngest once again about what was up. He finally relented and said his anxiety was up, that it had started to ramp up late in the week. So I explained that there was a full moon coming and that people who are ultra sensitive can feel the change stronger than others and that if he needed to take additional meds he had them available . I also told him that he needs to let us know when he is having trouble so we can help, at least to be able to listen and perhaps have some solutions.

Now I know there is no science behind this, but I also know that the moon can create tides, and other things like that, that births often happen during a full moon. So knowing that the God of all things set the moon in the sky for a reason, then we have to acknowledge that the reason may not be known to us. But God is good all the time and that this world has been broken by the influx of sin and so we are left with shifting sands which we do not understand, but we have a God who does understand, provides a solid rock and holds our hand as He places our feet on the rock even as the sands shift once again.