Taa-daa, little things become miracles

Last week the youngest turned in his application to an assisted living situation, one which helps those with serious mental illnesses develop job skills and living skills. This is a MIRACLE. No , not the boom and it is done kind, but more of a step by persistent step miracle. And of course, God was present every single step, every single day including those days of seclusion when the youngest could not even leave his room but to his anxiety.

Today he went to the grocery store. Another small step by step miracle. Persistence to overcome the noise, people,  the rhythm of stores in general with their music, and beeps and just noise. For me, you just tune them out most of the time, but for the youngest it is like an assault on his ears and jacks his anxiety into high gear. But he is determined to do this and has placed himself squarely in the driver’s seat as he takes over the directionality of his life. MIRACLE, yes indeed it truly is one of those little by little moving forward. Will there be set backs? Probably, but even then I am confident he will be able to come up with a plan on how to overcome them.  Next week he goes for an official intake interview, this helps prepare him for future job interviews.

So my prayer today is for those step by step miracles especially when we want the boom, one and done kind of miracles. Thankful for those who continue to uplift the youngest in prayer, for the therapists, the doctors who have the patience to move step by step when we as parents want to see our children better- right now, but in their wisdom know that step by step is a better way. Thankful that the Sovereign Lord remains in all things , over all things and through all things and has immense patience with us daily. Amen


Success comes in small doses

So the youngest comes up and tells me “me and Eric are going to a poetry thing on Thursday.” ” Really??, I responded. He then sort of half laughs and says”yeah, I promised.” So off he went this evening and hopefully he will gain some confidence in himself, because if he could go to a university with voices in his head saying not nice things, then surely this will be better and easier. But it is always tension producing as well as anxiety producing. He did take an extra dose of his anxiety meds, which is ok. When asked how long he let me know he would be home around 8:30 , pause “or sooner” little giggle smirk. So we will see, but he did exit the door and get into a car without his headphones, and with a positive “see y’all later” so success does come in small doses.

so again my prayer is for all those who work with people with severe mental illnesses, the caregivers, the peer counselors, the therapists and the doctors. For all those folks who uplift the youngest and my family in prayers nightly and more than once when I have called in crisis or sudden and unexpected changes . I am thankful as I have seen the work of the God, who is sovereign and remains and works in all things, over all things and through all things. Thankful for the small dose of success and the possibilities that it might lead to in the near future rather than the distant future, thankful because we live and breathe and exist in a compassionate, merciful and grace filled God who is Immutable. We may not understand what we are going through but we can rest assured that Emmanuel,God with us, is present every step of the way. AMEN

Pause and consider

Today I read this from the Berean “Thus, wisdom says, “This is a situation I cannot truly change. I will not let this seeming injustice dominate my life because more is going on here than meets my eye.” He will ask himself, “Is there anything I can do to help my judgment so this doesn’t destroy my attitude and with it my faith and fear of God?” It was talking about life circumstances with Ecclesiastes 7:15-18 as the references verse. And wow , it hit me. The circumstances I live in I cannot change, nor is it likely that it will change in my life time. So then it becomes one of will, living under God’s will, living in the knowledge that this is not my home, and that I may never see “happiness” in this life. But boy do I want that lol. Who wouldn’t want to see their loved one be released from disease, and be whole and functioning.

The scripture states “15) In this meaningless life of mine I have seen both of these:
a righteous man perishing in his righteousness,
and a wicked man living long in his wickedness. (16) Do not be overrighteous,
neither be overwise—
why destroy yourself? (17) Do not be overwicked,
and do not be a fool—
why die before your time? (18) It is good to grasp the one
and not let go of the other.
The man who fears God will avoid all extremes .

And again shouldn’t extremes be avoided anyway, I think so. I also agree with the commentator, that when you are involved, enmeshed in a situation you cannot see clearly. I think also that we should believe as the commentator states, “there is more in this situation than we can imagine. For indeed God works in just these types of situations. And while we chafe at the waiting, and want to see results, we have to remember that we ,as Christians , are being made into the likeness of Christ. We are being made Holy, not happy.

There are things we can do to help our judgement. 1. Seek Christian counseling and listen with an open mind and heart. 2. Pray – ask for wisdom in the situation. Be aware you may not  like the answer because He may say wait,see I am doing a new thing. 3. Read and reread the truths in the Holy Bible, read more than one translation , more than one commentator, search and research the scripture. 4. Listen to friends who may have had similar circumstances ( I have yet to find any that come close to mine – lol) 5. Practice the sacred lament, but don’t fall into the whiney “poor me syndrome” , use and reuse the Psalms of lament .

So my prayer today is that I remember that there is more going on in my situation than I can see, or do anything about. I pray for the patience to look beyond myself and look to Christ, my hope, my firm foundation. I pray that I continue to recall that the Sovereign Lord, is sovereign, and that no matter what, He is present, He is powerful, and that He is in all things over all things and through all things. AMEN