January started out in LIMBO and proceeded into Feburary with a Boom and preserverance, March the voices returned and there were transitions. By this time we were still struggling with social skills and sitting in the nursery at church rather than in the congregation. I can hardly believe it was this year. It seems like ages and ages ago and the youngest has made great strides praise the Lord for all His bounty. April it seems I was contemplating acceptance of this situation and the choices we were making and the voices disappeared ( I give full credit to all my prayer warriors who were alerted and began praying quickly) within one week of them returning. They still seep back for short periods and when things get a little off kilter for the youngest, but he realizes that they are not permanent, threatening or debilitating as they had been in the past. Another Praise the Lord moment here!!
In May we started over still trying Daily to get back into society and for me it was a struggle of not knowing if I was doing the right thing or not but I just put it in the Lord’s hands and did my best. And in June we got some transitions going along with some accountability and a little boost from some volunteer work the youngest had done. Thanks to the support of those persons who accepted the role of mentor in a small but significant painting job. July was hot and humid and we had some surprises like his anxiety blowing up on us and some grieving to do. I still don’t know what to do with the grief sometimes because it just creeps up on you and the tears flow. We also got caught and diminished , no , not really because the Lord is the Lord who magnifies all little things into great things. We saw the eldest, the son-in-Law and the grandson off to a foreign country so that was truly a change of seasons
September saw little things turn into a miracle and followed by October with the youngest turning in his application to a residential vocational rehab program, and can you believe it when just 10 months ago he wouldn’t or couldn’t be around people, I am still in awe of the amazing power of The Lord who heals. There were October birthdays and moving forward days and slow step by step progress.
November the youngest went for his trial visit, succeeded and then the wait. We had the holidays of course and a deep-fried turkey which the youngest helped cook -delish, yummy. And excitement as December rolled in with the news that he could move in January 2 for his residential visit.
I actually am pretty amazed at all that has happened this year and the last few days this verse has come up on my devotions. Jeremiah 31:3-4 “I have loved you with an everlasting love, I have drawn you with unfailing kindness. I will build you up again and you will be rebuilt.” And all I can say is Amen and Amen because I have been blesssed with this everlasting love, This unfailing kindness and This rebuilding. Has it been easy, no, is it a miracle, yes. Did I know what was happening in the moment, no but looking back I can surely see the hand of God in all this mess of life after all He is One God the father of all who is in all things over all things and through all things Amen and thank you readers for your prayers uplifted I am sure they were heard and if you ever doubt God is present just review the year and sit in amazing grace and awe of what has happened . Happy New Year, the journey continues.