Sometimes in this battle with schizophrenia our little universe of 3 feels wobbly, like a three-legged stool with one of the legs slightly shorter than the other. It wobbles and shifts and isn’t quite stable but it is not falling over either. This disease makes things wobbly because the things you thought were stable simply aren’t ! And on any given day it can change and the thing that was stable yesterday isn’t today. Such shifting and turning is enough to make a sane person go a little crazy never mind the one who has problems with confused thinking anyway. And I suspect that it won’t settle out until the youngest gets through the growth which means around five years from now his body will have done the major changes so by then the meds can settle out also, but five years seems like a long time on days that start at dark o’thirty o’clock in the morning.
Then there is the three corded strand , the one which is tried or woven together tightly and is strong yet flexible. We are starting family therapy and perhaps it will help us become this three corded strand, strong, flexible able to shift with the many changes that this disease seems to throw at us daily. Ecclesiastes 4:12 states ” though one may be overpowered, two can defend themselves. A cord of three strands is not quickly broken.” One was certainly overpowered by the voices and the hallucinations, two have struggled to make things right and hopefully three will not quickly be broken. We may be wobbly, and shaky, but not struggling as hard and we can learn from each other how to take care of each other so the wobbles won’t be as strong or last as long when the ups and downs of this schizophrenia present themselves, perhaps and hopefully where one may not see, two could see then three will pick up on the nuances of changes and be ready to take corrective action before we get stuck as we did last April and continues somewhat now!!!